my day

salam and hi,

wah..it have been such a long time I didn't update my blog . and now here i am. updating my blog
my life just like usual ,happy and sad. its life right?  i'm having flu since me and my friend is mr'rempit' today.haha. there's nothing on my mind right now. seriously i am totally sad right now.hmm. i can't even think about it anymore. it hurts me badly.

this holiday, i plan to spend my holiday by making my own money. working part time. and unfortunately, there's no job for me. k. sob sob.

let me stop here. nothing to share . bye

sincerely,
Eja

Life

salam and hi,

awkward nya nak update.hee. seen it has been long time i am dis appearing in blogging world and here am i again. seriously,lately ni memang busy then i don't have any mood and idea nak update blog hingga lah ke saat ini baru adee nye pungg. hee.k,first of all eja nak kongsi pasal kem kepimpinan pengawas yang baru je habis minggu2 lepas.memang lah best tapi penat lah. macam2 kami buat bersama. makan,masak,tidur, naik kayu,baling belon,mandi ramai2,burung hantu,pulau harapan and terbang ke bulan.banyak sangat sampai tak tersebut. memang best giler lah. i got something from this kem "together we strong" tag line for my team. okay, secara jujur nya lah. i am being their leader for my team. memang sakit anak tekak dok jerit diaorang.walau apa2 pun tugas sebagai leader ni mamng bukan perkara yang senang. sakit kepala fikir benda apa nak kena suroh buat and alhamdulillah,hari tu team eja menang untuk LDK yang terakhir.we win it at last.

"PROBLEM COMES AND GO"

okay,buat masa yang terdekat ni memang eja ada banyak sangat masalah and eja mengaku yang kadang2 eja lemah,eja lost hope and eja takut eja tak dapat nak atasi semua ni. tapi dengan ada nya kawan2 family dan orang2 yang tersayang,eja yakin eja dapat. support dari diaorang macam sebahagian dari semangat eja and eja betul2 perlukan semua tu. masa eja down diaorang peluk eja,suroh eja kuat. seriously that a friend should do. a friendship means a lot to me. i wish that it last forever. 

i keep crying i keep losing my hopes but when they come and give me some strength i stay alive.

life teach me everything.life teach me what friends means,life teach me hows its going to be.life teach me to be  better than how i used to be and life teach me to TRY and not to GIVE UP.

  "EVEN PROBLEM COMES AND MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE DYING DON'T  

    STOP CAUSE IT JUST THE BEGINNING"

I keep hoping for you even though i know it is useless.once you have feelings for someone,those feeling will always be there. You may not like them anymore but you'll still care.

okay,i was kinda feeling for awhile and it just like i'm missing for something that used to be with me.seriously i miss that. i miss those and i miss him. don't ask me to forget if you've know the answer.

life wasn't a fairy tale having such a happy ever after love story. some's maybe needs time to get back. how i wish i can be with you for the last time of my life. i miss you. yes,its you. 

sincerely,

Eja

Lack of rest

SUPER DUPER SHORT ENTRY

salam and hi,

almost 10.30 but i'm still doing this. i mean updating my blog and at the same time listening to m new fav song THE REASON by Hoobstank. twitter and facebook seems to be so boring for me now and i'm moving on blog.

starting for last week, i slept in my brother room since he's not using his room for awhile. yeayy. i'm feeling very comfortable in this room because ...? I also don't know. ade something ek? HAHA. ghost maybe?

like usual.. homework.. assignment and a lots of other things is troubling me, yet it be worth for you at last eja. okay,fine. i do all that. i mean homework and assignment. oh, about those pictures that i've promise, i'm so sorry. i haven't finish edit all those pictures.

i am yawning right now. got to go. have a nice day and goodnight. sleep well and dream tight.

sincrely,
eja

Confuse

salam and hi,

lama dah tak update blog kan? so,here am i. updating my blog for my readers. time ni boring tahap gaban. tak tahu nak buat ape. sedangkan homework melambak atas meja. hehe. okay,seriously sekarang ni mood malas tengah menguasai diri saya. malas dan malas. nak buat peka tak de mood. nak buat text ULBS takde mood. nak buat addmath tak de mood .nak buat semua benda pun takde mood. hari sungguh panas dan saya tak de mood.

sebenarnya,tadi eja plan nak pi jalan2 dekat shopping complex dengan kiki. tapi,bila pegi rumah dia, ketuk punya ketuk. salam pun tak bejawab. memang sah lah takde kat rumah. okay. fine. bored to the max.

semalam,having such a great day being a photographer. memang lah penat but it worth okay.nanti ada masa eja upload.sebarang salah dan silap yang melukakan hati,jiwa dan raga harap dimaafkan waktu eja jadi photographer. seriously semalam eja memang tak nak lepas lansung dari NIKON DSLR tu.hehehe.

seriously semalam memang jealous sangat.hehe. sebab semua jejaka,i mean my besties pegi date and jejalan dengan makwe masing2 and yes, i'm alone. so good. thumbs up. eh,macam jealous je eja nih? memang pun.
tapi kan,tak pe lah, itu hak diaorang nak bahagia kan? i don't have any right to stop them.

kalau update blog bukan main banyak idea. tapi kalau nak tulis karangan 250 patah perkataan tu memang berjam-jam nak cari idea. kids nowadays.haha.


CONFUSE.....
hari tu masa nak hias dewan untuk merdeka kongsi,eja pegi lah duduk berehat kejap dekat belakang tu . okay,eja duduk dengan geng kelas sebelah.first tu ada lah kawan eja ni dia ajak kawan dia yang satu tu pegi jogging sabtu nih. okay, eja labelkan kawan 1 dan kawan 2 jelah,supaya cepat faham. kawan 1 pi ajak kawan 2 jogging. lepas tu,kawan 2 ni pi ajak eja jogging sabtu ni. eja malas betul lah nak pi jogging memang bukan hobi eja lah nak pi jogging . i rather choose to sleep for the whole day okay. eja simply cakap yang eja tak dapat jogging sebab eja tak boleh penat sangat sebab asma. konon nyer lah kau tu ja. yang kau bejalan satu shopping complex tak penat pulak. haha. then,lepas dia dengar eja cakap tak boleh nak jogging. dia ajak eja pi main badminton lah pulak. alahai.. eja mane reti main benda alah tu. setakat pegang kan raket tu boleh lah.then,eja cakap lah kat dia yang eja tak reti nak main badminton and guess what? dia ajak eja pi jalan je. i mean BERJALAN boleh imagine tak? okay, kalau jalan pi shopping tu okay lah jugak. ini tak, jalan untuk exercise. Seriously tak lah. okay. eja cakap TAK dan TAK. ORANG malas lah. ade faham. and one more thing,eja tak suka kacau BF orang lain. sebenarnya alasan yang eja buat tu memang eja sengaja buat supaya dia tak paksa eja ekot dia. seriously aku tak nak lah wei. HAK orang HAK orang and its not mine.

kalau boleh lah,eja nak elak semua benda tu. eja rimas, eja tak suka. hari tu,eja pi tugas macam biasa. and suddenly,eja baru sedar yang eja lupa nak bawak buku nota untuk catatan pengawas.okay, memang tak best lah. kang kalau tetiba je ada orang check bawak nota ke tak mesti lah kena hukum.seriously not awesome. and hari tu jugak dia pi pinjamkan buku nota dia untuk eja. seriously kejut lah jugak. yang bagi tu,kawan 2. sedangkan dia sendiri tak de buku nota lagi,ade hati nak bagi kat orang. eja ambik jelah,takut nanti ade spot check susah lah jugak. okay,masa tu.eja fikir benda tu semua khas dari kawan untuk kawan tapi bila semua tu berlaku slowly. i mean macam-macam.hmm.no idea. seriously stuck kat sini.

Malas lah nak cerita pasal kawan 2 tu. baik eja baring then tidur.best lagi. haha. yeay. tak lama lagi nak kem. hee. seronok lah sangat. hmm. okay,gtg nak pi cuci muka then start buat segala macam homework yang ade di atas meja nih. goodbye and take care :)


sincerely,
Eja

The most tired day

salam and hi ,

long time no see oh? hmm, i am totally tired to the max for today. today, we got a debate and unfortunately we lose. okay, first oh all i've never expect that we're gonna lose. that is because, a lot of people support us and telling that our school gonna win this match. i was really shock, the debater seem so easy to be defeat. you know why i'm feel'in not so agree with this judgement? i got my own reason okay. because all the judges is from kota samarahan. and do you know why they are winning this match? because they are from samarahan.
the conclusion is, the judges mind set is for SMK LUNDU.

okay, seriously i was totally sad, but its okay. we've done the best for our school. and yes! we've perform better than them. i still remember this " a winner doesn't mean they are winning the first place, but they are doing much better and putting a lot of effort on it".

last night i went to sleep almost at 2 a.m . i'm was so busy doing my projek sivik. waaaahh, so tired you know. and also my nota sejarah for my team work. and i was so tired to the max. having a headache and gastric at the same time.

i am aiming for next year debate. i'll make sure that our school gonna win next year debate. and i'll make sure that Bukit Lima will be the best among the best.go BUKIT LIMA !

this morning before we hit the road to RTM Sibu, i've find a little bit time for my akak gra. hee. and we got such a enjoying conversation and almost all the time i smile. okay, i was too happy. but why am i so happy? shhuuhhhh. TOP SECRET. cannot tell lahh. haha

okay,last but not least. now i am really tired and have to take a nap for awhile. eh, not nap lah.. sleep. haha. okay,readers. have a nice day and pray for my SPM next year. syukran jazillan for reading my blog.  may Allah bless you all. almost forgotten, for my future zauj.. take care dear, wherever you are.. i wish that you'll be okay. salam...

with love,
eja :)

I am a Birthday Girl

hi and salam ,

thanks to Allah for giving me such a great family, a great life with many kinds of challenges. giving me such agreat friends and siblings. thanks Allah. Syukran. and i almost forgotten that " i am proudly thankful to Allah for letting me to life on/in this world for 16 years "

a great and a big thanks to all my friends that have been wishing me on my birthday. my birthday song is playing hard on my mind right now.oh, yeah, here am i.updating my blog at 12.37 on 27 august 2012.


my birthday wishes,
i really hope that someone special will be the first person who is wishing on my birthday. and yes. it is impossible, okay, i'll take it as my first challenges as a 16 years old girl. i am glad and really thankful for having such a happy and enjoying and, hurm.. i can't even describe my own feeling. okay, my life ain't perfect yet Allah makes me feel perfect.

being thankful for what have given to me,
yes, i'm living my happy life with my family and friends.  even though i wasn't born in a rich family just like my teacher always say " born to this world with silver spoon on your mouth "
i am really really thankful for having such a great friend,who will always being there for me.motivating me and supporting me. and also my family who always understand me, take me  as who i am. and giving me such a big love.

it almost midnight, and now 12.45 a.m. i should go to bed right now. and should i say hello to school ? last but not least, thanks for those who have been wishing for my birthday :)

a birthday girl,
eja

My Best Ever Friend

salam and hi,

how was your raya? okay? this evening i'm feeling free to update my blog. okay, tak lama lagi sekolah dah nak bukak, so kita enjoy lah before sekolah bukak balik. hm, kalau dah start sekolah balik nanti confirm takde masa untuk blog,huhu.

daily routine on school week, bangun awal then terpaksa settle down with homework yang banyak melambak.  revise balik and then check schedule. Tiap-tiap hari balik akhir exception for friday sebab balik awal. usually sampai rumah pukul 3 or pukul 2.45 p.m. totally not awesome but there's something i really love abaout school is My Best Ever Friend.


okay,here we come to my post tittle. my best ever friend. mostly people on this earthlings got a best friends. and it goes same to me. i'm really thankful because Allah gave me such a good friend and it was actually best ever friend. i loves to be friend , to make new friend and to be friend. maybe some people don't but when it comes to me, yes. i really loves to make friend.


Who is My Best Ever Friend ? my best ever friend is a girl. someone who always be my good listener,the best person to hug and someone that i really understand me. also can make me feel a litlle bit calmer. she's the one who will always got a point or an idea to make me smile. to laugh after hearing her fool jokes. best revision mates. and a lot of things. almost forget about one thing, she's the best one who can accompany me to sing out loud our Korean pop songs. she's the best one.

What makes me feel good about her ? she's kinda understanding me, know me better than others. who will always says something that she don't like or don't feel right at my front and not at my back. she's motivated me. she's kinda matured person and i really love to have  a chit chat with her. people may looks her as a serious, arrogant or sombong or etc. but to me, she's got an incredible personality. the more or the long time you know her, the more you love about her.


What she loves to do? She really loves to make jokes. she also got an awesome and kinda MERDU voices. she loves to paint, she loves maths i means basic maths just like multiply,divide,plus and minus. she's a future accountant who got an ambition to be a lecturer. she really loves a beautiful and cute things so much. she loves kids. and her nephew call her Buk Ina. KINDA special name right? but to me, its cute.

What I hope and pray for her? I hope that one day, she'll achieve what she want to be. find her soul mates. success in her life and i pray that one fine day, she'll receive her hidayah to wear hijab . and to be a full time muslimah. may she find her happiness. may Allah always gave the best for her. may her smile last for along time and i hope she'll be strong as strong as she used to be or more stronger than she used to be, to face all challenges in her life.lastly, may Allah bless her.

the best ever friends, is the one who will always be by our side when we need them. who will always support us no matter how big our problem is. who will wiling to give us a big hug to make us feel calmer. friends.. you are one of my best ever gift that ever Allah gave to me. Thanks friends. Please strictly remember that, friendship won't end if we don't end it. please, forgive me for all my mistake, my over saying or anythings that i do that ever hurt your feelings. Girls... thanks for everything.


last but not least, thanks for the one who never stop reading my blogs and accept who am i. i'm just human beings who do bad things and always try to be more better than before.

sincerely,
eja

The Last Post About Him

salam and hi,

miss me already? okay, see the post tittle above? the last post about him. okay, since we're not together anymore i've decide to write a post about him and untill now or today baru ada kesempatan. okay, the first and the last maybe, post about him. who is HIM ? okay, let me tell of you. HIM is someone or somebody that i used to love,someone that i used to get close and someone that i used to miss. right now, i'm totally having a disorder mental and split personality. okay.hmm. i don't know where i'm gonna start to write about him. I'm getting to know him about 9 months ago and that's mean we're knowing each other for about 9 months already. we're actually accidentally knowing each other. it happens on 24 November 2011. whereas, there a boy who dare to comment on my bored update status on FB . he comment one weird word and it is "POPTROPICA"  okay, i was totally shock. hm. don't know why on that night i was interested to play a game who is weirdly name POPTROPICA. hm. we started to know each other after the game was ended. we're texting and get  to know each other. that was the first time in my life i text a person almost for 5 hours and it was totally OMOOOO! okay,i admit that my hand is "KEPAK" straightly after finish texting with him. day by day both of us getting closer and it was such a great memory to me.


The confession, this part is so so funny okay. where there a man who keep calling me sayang and me "tak malu ke panggil orang sayang sedangkan, there's nothing between us" at first i was totally know and labelled him as a kasanova . how bad am i at that time right? hehe.

I accept him.  I Open My Heart For HIM . I'm falling in love with him. okay, i was totally unexpected that i will fall in love with him. i get to know him more closer. knowing him such a great and wonderful things for me. loving him was totally teaching me what love is. i was In Love.

Just like others couples, of course we're having a problem in our relationship.  and i still remember how hard and how was he trying to convince me and how he try to make me smile. okay, he was totally a patient person. hm. I still remember, there was a girl who tried to ask for his number phone and he don't even reply that girl inbox and i am the one who is always stalking his inbox. okay, i'm just a girl who has a feeling and i do feel jealous okay.

I made such a big decision,
 when I leave him, i decide to stop all this although at that time i know that i really love him. okay, all this happen after i get my hidayah.
and this is the way hidayah came to me.

I Cry. and this is the reason why i lie to him. i tell him that my family don't even allowed me to have a boyfriend. okay, i am guilty. sorry. hmm. i tell him "if there is jodoh and if we're meant to be" For quite a long time, i try to get used with my life without him. and many things happen and it was totally hurt me. i try to make he hate me. i made a fake relationship, sending such a stupid message to him. and thinking that he is trying to play with me. it such a fool things. i cried . i hurt my self. i keep myself in silent and i also being such a fool girl. and at that time, i realized that i need him. i love him. and i don't even able to see he with another girl. and one thing that will never fade and will never i forget is, when he called me. and i heard his breathing while he was sleeping through the phone. oh, how i miss to hear your voice. we're just human beings and we only can planned but all this will happen exactly how ALLAH planned. hmm, that's why its call love. for the one who i ever love and ever come into my heart. i still remember our promises "janji ngan id yg eja sik kan tinggalkan id" "eja janji id" please remeber this chatting,texting, on the phone,video call, skype and everything about you is still there. in a special place. T.A.

                                                                          sincerely,                                                                                                                                            
                                                                                                                   eja

The First Big Step

Salam and Hi ,

Lama dah tak update blog kan? baru malam ni berkesempatan. okay, sekarang ni malam raya ke-3. raya tahun  nih okay  lah sikit and a little bit  Awesome sebab hari raya pertama dapat jalan raya dengan keng kawan. best lah. and guess what.. on that day i went out with him. i mean my crush,opps. my last year crush. dia dah makin gemuk sikit sekarang. eh, salah. tembam lah. eh. em. alahai susah nyer nak describe. okay, senang kata cukup makan. haha. firstly, aku mula2 tu bole tahan janggal lah jugak nak bercakap dengan dia, maklum lah sebab lama dah tak jumpa since dia transfer ekot family and since we're not neighbors anymore.

eh, chopp. dah terlebih cerita lah pulak. okay, here we go. the first big step.
tak lama lagi dah nak habis tahun 2012. masa teresa sekejap je berlalu kan? hm. and soon i'm gonna sit for SPM. nervous and i'm not ready yet. matlamat cuti hujung tahun ni adalah nak study and score subject yang I belum dapat score lagi. bila fikirkan benda ni memang naik banyak dandruff dekat kepala nih. bukan apa, runsing, pusing and banyak lagi lah. kalau boleh kan, I nak sangat score semua subject. kalau boleh lah katakan.  eheemm.the end of this chapter. next....

I'm Fallin In Love with ......

Rasulullah s.a.w. 

banyak yang kita boleh contohi and pelajari daripada baginda. okay, dulu aku mengaku yang aku ni berfikiran cetek. kalau orang bagi nasihat pasal agama mesti orang tu kena tagline Ustz. OR Ustzh.
betapa teruk nya aku dulu. truly , aku kesal dengan semua tu. hm. aku harap yang tak ade lagi orang yang akan berfikiran macam aku.

first aku nak tunaikan checklist aku sebagai seorang khalifah di bumi Allah and MUSLIMAH .
aku nak jadi seseorang yang hanya bukan ISLAM pada IC tapi dalam hati.
masya'allah tinggi nya kuasa Allah. membukakan hati aku untuk mencari NUR dalam kehidupan.

RUKUN ISLAM :
1.MENGUCAP DUA KALIMAH SYAHADAH  [✔]
2.SEMBAHYANG 5 WAKTU SEHARI SEMALAM [✔]
3.BERPUASA SELAMA 1 BULAN DI BULAN RAMADHAN [✔]
4.MENUNAIKAN HAJI BAGI YANG BERKEMAMPUAN [✔]
5.MENUNAIKAN ZAKAT [✔]

persoalan nya, sudah kah anda menunaikan rukun ISLAM tanggungjawab and sebagai seorang ISLAM.
KITA ISLAM BUKAN HANYA PADA NAMA. BERSYUKURLAH KERNA ANDA LAHIR SEBAGAI SEORANG ISLAM. ya Rahman ya Rahim. okay,here we go for the next chapter..


Hijab. . . 
Hijab is something that cover our head from non-muhrim people. hijab is one of the thing that we wear to cover the muslimah aurat. okay, here we go. I love fashion so so much. i love when seeing those muslim,
i mean muslimah wearing tudung labuh with many kinds of styles. although they wore it inmany kinds of styles but they still follow the syariat to cover their aurat. seriously they look so beautiful, i still remember this tagline TERTUTUP ADALAH LEBIH BAIK .
okay, this is my chronology about hijab : woman are just like a candy. i got two candy and one of it i open its wrapper. and i throw both of it on the sand. and again i pick them up. and i give it to you. which one would you like to choose. think wisely .

and last but not least ,

Love After Nikah IS MORE BARAKAH...
 a lot of people keep asking me why am i counting on this. okay, i choose love after nikah because i know that Allah knew the best for me. and I don't want to break my own heart for having a crush or boyfriend.
my love is just for my imam, the owner of my ribs bone. the one who has been destiny to be mine to spend
his whole life for me. who can lead me till jannah. who can taught me to love Rasulullah and Allah.
I pray that one day,i'll find my own ADAM. the one who love me for the sake of Allah. Pernikahan dan Percintaan Bukan Satu Permainan. It Wasn't A Game.

okay, that's all for this entry pray for me dear reader,. semoga nawaitu ini erus kekal. aku hidup kerna
Lillah hi ta'ala . . 

                      
                                                                                               SINCERELY,
                                                                                                    Eja